Saturday, May 14, 2016

Me Too!

I thank God every day
That I woke up feelin' this way
And I can't help lovin' myself
And I don't need nobody else, nuh

Meghan Trainor

See I was in my zone before you came along....Yah I'm lonely - feel totally thrown for a loop. Never EVER thought I 'd be here where I am now. I THOUGHT he loved me.

And I'm a classy girl, I'mma hold it up
You're full of something but it ain't love
And what we got, straight overdue
Go find somebody new
Meghan Trainor

I THOUGHT he'd always try. I THOUGHT he was smart! He's DUMB. This may sound cocky but I actually LIKE myself now. I love myself even. *GASP* Why not? God loves me. God doesn't want us to hate ourselves- that said. My stbx will NEVER find anyone who comes near to being as good (SMART, BEAUTIFUL) a wife AS ME! I'm sorry but I really believe that, knock yourself out honey cause you just won't.

Boy, look at me in my face
Tell me that you're not just about this bass
You really think I could be replaced?
Nah, I come from outer space
Meghan Trainor

But me? I'm finding someone BETTER. No NOT NOW! LATER! I just keep coming across these men lately who are JUST LIKE HIM. (INTERESTED? YES! IN TWO THINGS: SEX AND MONEY!) I'm sorry HONEY the answer is NO!

My name is no
My sign is no
My number is no
You need to let it go
You need to let it go

Meghan Trainor

He's so fricken MEAN but at least he has a great job. So I'm finding someone NICE (WHO LOVES ME) with a good job! All this time and he's NOT even a Christian!!!! Seriously! (He's a great ACTOR THOUGH) So I'M FINDING SOMEONE WHOSE A REAL CHRISTIAN: OK SO LET ME EXPLAIN WHAT THAT WOULD LOOK LIKE:

1 He'll be not just "talking the talk" but "walking the walk" 
2. He'll be IN THE WORD and PRAYING EVERYDAY LIKE ME          
3 He'll be INVOLVED in his church or ministry/calling LIKE ME
4 He'll be MATURE LIKE ME (Probably no more than 10 years younger or older than me, so born between 1956 and 1976)

You gotta know how to treat me like a lady
Even when I'm acting crazy
Tell me everything's alright
Meghan Trainor

5 He will be established in a good job and FINANCIALLY RESPONSIBLE (HE makes sure HIS BILLS ARE PAID ALL BY HIMSELF)
6 He will be healthy! Works out regularly and doesn't smoke or drink, LIKE ME
Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ also loved the church and gave Himself for her...Ephesians 5:25
8 OH AND TDH (TALL DARK AND HANDSOME) Goes without saying. ;-)

LOL OK maybe #8 isn't all that important! But 1-7 ARE!

Um and another thing HE WOULDN'T BE THE TYPE TO EVEN CONSIDER APPROACHING ME RIGHT NOW!!!!!! I'm BROKEN with an open wound that's still bleeding!!!! Sure yeah I'm VULNERABLE RIGHT NOW! THESE men see me as RIPE for the picking! THAT'S NOT THE KINDA MAN I WANT!  I'M STILL MARRIED FOR CRYING OUT LOUD! JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!
7-7-17 Update: Still married but could possibly be divorced this year; AFTER I'm divoced I will date. Wow what a novel idea!

I told that one TDH that I broke up with after making out with him in his car. "If I keep seeing you, I'm gona end up sleeping with you, so I WON'T"  (Keep seeing you) SEE HOW I'M HONEST TO A FAULT?  So now and again he calls me, usually I don't answer it, but sometimes I slip up and do BUT I HAVE NOT SEEN HIM AGAIN! AND THANK-YOU JESUS FOR THAT! NOTE: I DID END UP BLOCKING HIM, FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO MIGHT BE WONDERING.

Also BTW IF you MUST LOOK at PORN everyday? Have a pack of condoms in the car "Just in case" Are you "friending" strippers in another state? So you can get photos? You might be a SEX ADDICT. JUST FYI- YOU'RE NOT THE MAN I WANT!

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If you like my poems you can get a whole book of them on Amazon: The Seven Story Tree

He Chose Me- I Choose You!
Excuse me if I don't want to be
Friends with those who criticize me
You see
What you do not know is me
And how I learned to overcome
The criticism I received from Day 1
Never smart enough
Pretty enough
Thin enough
This house is never clean enough
Why do you do it that way?
You should do it this way
Read this
Read that
Help them do that
Cook this not that
You are too fat!
Why this?
Why that?
You are lame
You are lazy
You are dumb
You are crazy!
Now you're sad?
Why are you mad?
Until my King came to me and said
You are smart
You are beautiful
You are talented
You are dutiful
You are loved
You are lovely
I am not mad at you
I'm mad about you!
Even if you were
The only one
I would have sent My Son
Just for you!
Don't listen to those other voices
I'll help you make the right choices
I'll lead you on the path that's right
'Cause you are precious in my sight!

On Being Selective
I'm 49 years old
And I've wasted too much time
On those who only want one thing...or two
My body, my money
They want to know what you can do FOR THEM
They use you
They abuse you
But now I know just what to do
Just say "NO"
But "YES" to those who build me up
And fill my cup til it overflows
There are those who recognize my worth
Who don't just want one thing or two
Wow I never knew
There are people out there as nice as you!

Moving On to Greener Pastures
Going nowhere fast?
On a self destructive path?
I will know him when I see him
We are both on the road to Somewhere
The Visions there
We write it down
I won't have to always wear a frown
Or be a clown
We plan, the Lord directs
When I meet him I will detect
The respect and fervent love he has for the Lord
It will be so wonderful to be
Finally equally yoked
He will be like me!
Not perfect, noone is
But on the narrow path that leads to life
No more strife!
I am on to greener pastures!

New Poem! 10-5-17

My perfect match?
It's simple really,
He must love Jesus,
He must love children,
He must love dogs,
He must love Switchfoot ,
& he must love me!

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