Sunday, May 24, 2015

Make Me Thy Fuel Flame of God by Amy Carmichael

 Make me Thy fuel, Flame of God
by Amy Carmichael 

From prayer that asks that I may be
Sheltered from winds that beat on Thee,
From fearing when I should aspire,
From faltering when I should climb higher,
From silken self, O Captain, Free
Thy soldier who would follow Thee.

From subtle love of softening things,
From easy choices, weakenings,
(Not thus are spirits fortified,
Not this way went the Crucified,)
From all that dims Thy Calvary,
O Lamb of God, deliver me.

Give me the love that leads the way,
The faith that nothing can dismay
The hope no disappointments tire
The passion that will burn like fire,
Let me not sink to be a clod:
Make me Thy fuel, Flame of God.

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Wednesday, May 13, 2015

It's Just Another day...

Who can find a virtuous wife?
For her worth is far above rubies....
She watches over the ways of her household,
And does not eat the bread of idleness. Proverbs 31: 10, 27


6:20 am wake Lyd up

6:30 am wake Lyd up

6:35 am wake Lyd up- this time don't leave til you see her feet on the floor!

We go to leave and Suzy Q's battery is dead. We're already late anyways. Thankfully Claire Bear hasn't left yet so I take the accord to take Lyd to school. Ian's also here with his little beat up used to be Teddy's- civic.

When I'm finishing my quiet time, the lady from the bank calls- about the mortgage payment on the rental- which I got tenants for again- all by myself- again- Yay! The line of credit I was letting pay the mortgage wasn't enough to cover the payment this time. I had forgot there was a small balance on that line of credit already. I needed to go to the banks and rearrange the money again. My mom used to call this "Borrowing from Peter to pay back Paul" The burden of managing all the money by myself has taken it's toll. It's alot when you have two mortgages, insurances, taxes, the kids car insurances, multiple credit card payments, electric and water at home AND at the rental ETC.. I finally set up many of these with automatic payments but need to make sure the moneys in the bank when they are going to come out. He also refuses to do anything with the rental house lately- you'd think he could get alot done when he was living there for over a month but he didn't. It's like he doesn't want the money stress to leave because he wants me to be constantly pressured to get a job. Hello! THIS IS A FULL TIME JOB!

The sequoia actually started after I came back from school. But then it didn't so I put it on the charger.

Claire Bear came home and was about to make herself a quesadilla when I said, "Do you want me to go get you some food?" Yes, I got her ice-cream at DQ. (Of course I had to take her accord to do this) She's graduating from highschool and going to basic training (For the US Army) in the next few weeks so excuse me if I spoil my baby! I also got Ian ice-cream and me a burger. After I ate I went to the banks. Then I walked at the park at an unusual time for me and anyone for that matter! No one was there and it was HOT. I usually go in the morning or evening when the whole town of Byron's there!

Meanwhile, I had sorted out the laundry and started it. Strangely enough the only person's laundry I should be doing is probably the only one who does her own laundry- Lydia whose 14. I am still doing Bob's and my 18 yr old's (Claire Bear) and Ian's since he's home.

I got home from the park and I was going to take a shower and make dinner. Bob had bought a family pack of boneless/skinless chicken breast- 5 lbs of chicken! I decided to cook it all and make quesadillas with half and chicken salad with half.

Before I could go in the shower, however, the phone rang. It was Sarah saying her battery was dead. Sarah works nights at the hospital- she's a nurse- this time of the afternoon, she's getting up to run errands and whatnot. So I took Suzy Q and her weak battery over to Sarah's to jump start her and it worked!

Finally back home for my shower but the soap is almost gone, so I go in the kids bathroom....OMG! What a mess! I remember a few weeks ago, cleaning my shower with the toilet bowl cleaner which gets it beautifully sparkling and saying to them that they needed to do theirs....Obviously they didn't and the toilet was gross too. I cleaned the toilet and decided to put the stuff on their shower, scrub a little (All you need do with that powerful stuff!) and let them rinse it. I mixed lysol toilet bowl cleaner with some clorox toilet bowl cleaner and I could barely scrub and then I had to run out side it smelled overpowering! I thought I might pass out, but thankfully didn't.

Then took my shower and started the quesadillas. I called Claire Bear and she made the salsa. It was really yummy. I had only six tortillas so when Bob came home, he went out and got more.

In between everything I'm putting the laundry in the dryer, taking it out and putting another load in.

Before  I was done with dinner, I was exhausted! I didn't feel like making the chicken salad. They were saying they didn't like it that much. I still need to clean up the kitchen and fold the laundry. Bob and I watched the season finale of Bates Motel while I folded the laundry. To my credit one week I did ONLY fold my laundry and put Claire's and Bob's in baskets and put them outside their bedroom doors. But I didn't really mind folding while I watched this show- for the last time- it's the Season Finale and I'm not gona start watching it when it starts again. I said a couple times I was gona stop watching Bates and The Returned but the characters had drawn me in and the DVR recorded it and I needed something to watch while I folded....while I watched that I got a text about picking up the fried chicken for the soccer banquet on Monday. Check. There was chicken in a pan in the fridge Bob had made on Sunday I put into separate containers and I cut up the rest of the chicken breast put some in the fridge to put in salad or quesadillas etc and some in the freezer for later. I cleaned up the kitchen a little and left the dishes to do this morning.

By the end of this day. I was tired but also thankful for all I accomplished. I also realized I would enjoy this for now cause in a few short months everything would be different cause I'd either have only one other person to care for or nobody else to care for  and I'd be completely independent!

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My Aim and Hope

Cook, Clean, Study, Sing
Work-out, Write, Remember, Repeat
Love, let go, Forgive, Forget
Have no regret,
Jesus, Joy, Strength, Stability
Never wasting your ability
Pray, Praise, Play all Day
King and Crown,
One day we'll meet
And I'll lay it all at his feet


Throw the match
Set the past ablaze
Ashes to Ashes
Dust to Dust
My tears have turned my heart to rust
Sometimes I don't want to go
But I must
Everything's on fire
Like the woods
the Summer he came home
There's a burn ban til October
No matter- don't mind- no fine
Crash crash
It's smashed- totally trashed
That old dream has died
He said he loved me, but he lied
The white picket fence has gone up in flame
And I'm the only one to blame
I am suffocating
Desperate for air
The wolf chews off her leg to get free of the trap
They're just waiting for her to snap
Her wings were clipped and burned
But now her fate has turned
Who died? I did
Cause they hurt me so bad
It's like they murdered my past
And threw dirt on my casket
How curious to be free
There are no strings on me
My future is unlimited
To the sky
I will fly
So high
Looking down on the ruins
I find Him there
This time I won't come crashing down
to the ground
I will glide with the winds currents
Blowing here and there
Flowing in the Spirit
You hear the sound of it
But cannot predict where it will leave it's effects next

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

House and Home -Intro to The Seven Story House Bible Study

The wise woman builds her house, But the foolish pulls it down with her hands. Proverbs 14: 1

It was a warm Spring night in May and people began arriving at our house for my 10 year old's soccer banquet. Suddenly I heard sirens, I said, “That’s unusual to hear sirens so close.” Then the phone rang, it was my friend and a mom of one of the girls on the team, she had just got off work and was heading to our house. Brooke was already here, in the pool with a half dozen of her teammates who had showed up and immediately jumped in. She said in an alarmed tone, “Where’s Brooke?! There’s a fire and it looks like it’s right in your yard!” I was puzzled, "A fire?" I looked out in the back yard and everything looked normal. The girls were busy playing...."There's no fire here" I said, "Brooke's fine, she's playing in the pool with Lydia and the rest of the girls"

When I did see the fire, I knew what Tracey was so alarmed by. Our neighbor's house was a towering inferno- being destroyed in what seemed minutes! The houses out here where we live in the country in Georgia are pretty far apart. There are many trees (a small forest) between our lots and that's why at first I was oblivious to this catastrophe. The flames seemed to reach the sky! Now I could feel the heat emanating from them while I was still in my own yard! Before it was over, we heard several small explosions. One of the guests at our house went over to help and actually drove my neighbor's car away from the house right before her son's old truck went up in flames.

In 2001 I read R.A. Torrey’s book, How to Obtain Fullness of Power. In it he speaks of a seven story house with a basement. Our literal (3 story) house also has a basement. Torrey’s figurative seven story house, however, is in 2 Peter 1:5-8: But also for this very reason, giving all diligence, add to your faith (basement) virtue (1), to virtue knowledge (2), to knowledge self-control (3), to self-control perseverance (4), to perseverance godliness (5), to godliness brotherly kindness (6), and to brotherly kindness love (7). For if these things are yours and abound, you will be neither barren nor unfruitful in the knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. As I said the title of this book is, How to Obtain Fullness of Power and the very first chapter where these verses are mentioned is called, The Power of the Word of God. There are five chapters in Torrey's book and chapter 1 is about the Word of God or the Bible- Torrey says, "Character building should be done according to the Word of God. In 2 Peter 1:5-7, we have a picture of a seven-story-and-basement Christian. The great trouble today (and this book is ©1897), is that we have too many one-story Christians, the reason being neglect of the Word." I believe this is also the reason so many Christian's figurative "houses" (their lives) are being destroyed. We're addicted, divorced, convicted but not repentant, lazy, lustful, greedy, overweight, cowardly, sickly, dying...We have no victory. Where is the "Glorious church without spot or wrinkle"? And as I point a finger at you, I have three pointing back at me, cause I've been there/done that. This is my story about over-coming (and still working to over come) these things.

The Apostle Paul said, "I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back."

Philippians 3:12-14 (The Message)

I just recently decided that Joshua 1:8 is my "life verse":

This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate in it day and night, that you may observe to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success.

There are many references to our “house” in the Bible and how we are to “build” it:
Unless the LORD builds the house, They labor in vain who build it; Unless the LORD guards the city, The watchman stays awake in vain. Psalm 127:1

Through wisdom a house is built, And by understanding it is established; By knowledge the rooms are filled with all precious and pleasant riches. Proverbs 24:3-4

And in the very words of Jesus, Himself, "Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock." Matthew 7:24-25

Once, during the time we were building our house. I dreamed it was burning down. I felt like it was burning down. Only it wasn't our literal "house." It was our HOME.

Victor Hugo said,

A house is built of logs and stone,
Of tiles and posts and piers;
A home is built of loving deeds
That stand a thousand years.

For we are God’s fellow workers; you are God’s field, you are God’s building. According to the grace of God which was given to me, as a wise master builder I have laid the foundation, and another builds on it. But let each one take heed how he builds on it. For no other foundation can anyone lay than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ. Now if anyone builds on this foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw, each one’s work will become clear; for the Day will declare it, because it will be revealed by fire; and the fire will test each one’s work, of what sort it is. If anyone’s work which he has built on it endures, he will receive a reward. If anyone’s work is burned, he will suffer loss; but he himself will be saved, yet so as through fire. 1 Corinthians 3: 9-15

To borrow from the phrase on a plaque which hangs on our wall: Home is where this story begins......

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