Tuesday, March 8, 2022

The Party: In memory of Joyce Alexis Hewitt June 27, 1952-January 9, 2021

More than just a sister-in-law she was a great friend. Rest In Peace Joyce You are so loved!
January 8, 2021 She woke about 11:15 pm and said she was going to a party. She went to the bathroom on her potty chair. She asked me if I was going, so I said “later”. She said she saw Drew Barrymore. I asked who all was going to this party. First she said, “Two people”. Then she said “four”. She said Darrell and Sheryl were going. I asked her if I was invited, she said, “yes”. She asked, “What time are they coming?” because I said they would pick her up (because she kept trying to get out of bed). Then she said, “I need to put on my make-up” “Go get me my make-up and my wig” I make her promise not to move and I got her wig, make-up and a mirror. We put on the wig and she was applying the make-up herself when I got her oxygen hose which had come off again. She said, “ What? This? I thought I was dead already.” A single tear rolled down her cheek and she put the make-up down. I gave her her medicines and I told her, “It will happen when we’re all ready” Then she took the ring off her right hand and said, “Put this ring in a special place” I said, “Okay. And what about the other ring?” and she said, “Give this to Jody” I read to her more from the Bible and we prayed. She also said, “Look at the beautiful roses!” I reminded her they were from Darren and that the flower bear was from Jon and she grabbed him to put on the bed beside her. She was also exercising in the bed! Lifting one leg and the the other! I said to myself, “This may take awhile.” When we’re all ready! Psalm 116:15 Precious in the sight of the Lord is the death of His saints. PS The mistake in my story- which btw I wrote a few hours after it happened at about 3:00 am .........where she said "are you going?" (I meant to the Party) and it sounded like was I going to use the potty chair. I am leaving in there because we had joked about me using the potty chair! lol The mistake was unintentional though (to me).

Monday, February 28, 2022

A lady always knows when to leave.....

"Miss Ruth was a lady. A lady always knows when to leave." ~ The Film "Fried Green Tomatoes"
This quote from a favorite movie has come back to me many times and rung true in many of my life situations. In 2009 when my mom passed. In 2016 when I moved out of my exes house. In 2020 when I left my exes state....In 2021 it has come up many times: when my sister-in -law passed in January....when I left my brother's ranch house in April and then when I left the mostly toxic YouTube community/click later in the year and who knows when it will be time for me to move on again but I have confidence the Lord will let me know!
You will show me the path of life; In Your presence is fullness of joy; In Your right hand there are pleasures forevermore. Psalm 16:11 Meghan Trainer's I'm A Lady

Monday, February 7, 2022

What Can You Do About Assholes?

I had an interesting conversation with my roomate the other day. It was about cast iron skillets and assholes. I said no I did not use soap on the cast iron skillet and my ex used to go on and on about that. He said something like, "cooks are particular about their cook ware" or something like that. At that I felt compelled to say, "I did most of the cooking" (I had so much practice that I was also better at it) To which he replied, "Why did he go on about the skillet then?" I said, "Because he's an asshole" To which he replied, "There's not much you can do about assholes" And I VERY MUCH DISAGREE WITH THAT STATEMENT BUT I DID NOT WANT TO ARGUE. HENCE THIS POST.There are many things we can do about assholes: 1) We can divorce them 2) We can avoid them. When we realize someone is an asshole, we can not hang around them. 3) If they refuse to leave us alone, we can get a restaining order 4) If they slander us, we can sue them 5) As Nadia says here, We can forgive them and it's like cutting the chord that binds us to them which makes us like freedom fighters who 6) Aren't afraid to SPEAK TRUTH TO STUPID. AMEN 7) SOMETHING PROFOUND CAME TO ME LATER THAT EVENING. WHEN WE FEEL HELPLESS AGAINST ALL THE ASSHOLES IN THE WORLD (AND THEIR ARE ALOT OF THEM) WHAT DO WE DO THEN? BULLIES ARE ASSHOLES AND WHEN PEOPLE FEEL HELPLESS AGAINST THEM THEY HAVE TAKEN THEIR OWN LIVES AND THAT IS SO SAD AND UNNECESSARY! PLEASE EVERYONE REMEMBER THERE IS SO MUCH WE CAN DO ABOUT ASSHOLES!!!!! PLEASE STOP ENCOURAGING AND SUPPORTING THEM! THANK YOU! "THERE IS A LIGHT THAT SHINES IN THE DARKNESS AND THE DARKNESS CANNOT AND WILL NOT AND SHALL NOT OVER COME IT!" PS So maybe I am "dangerous" after all? LOL

Friday, December 17, 2021

Pray For Your Enemies? But God.......

Oh I am to pray for my enemies? Okay God I'll pray for them to die.....Oops no that's not what I am to do......I'm finding I'm having to start out getting real with God (He knows how I feel already anyways) : God I'm NOT ready to pray for this person. God, I honestly hate this person and I don't want you to bless them. God they need to receive their karma/consequences for their actions. (To reap what they have sowed) God, they almost got me to quit YouTube!!! I seriously wanted to sue them and seriously DO have a case (IF Page Publishing can file a suite against me after ripping me off I can certainly sue this BULLY!) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- God please bless the family and friends of Lee MacMillan It was similar bullying that broke her and destroyed her!!! God it's NOT fair that anyone would go to his bs live to step on my regular live time and bash me. (Some of my "friends" were in his chat!!! Supporting his BS!!!!) This is now his most viewed live! But God THANK YOU for Tube buddy and that it now says I've had MORE views and MORE subs than this bully and the original bully (In the last 30 days) named Ray!!!! Wow God!!! And Ray actually has a great channel, how did I get more views than him? (Could it be his karma?) ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- God it is much easier to pray for my ex!!! God bless him. I loved him. I care about him, he's the father to my five children. He at least, tried to help me get in my RV when I was locked out. I was meant to be with him for 30 years, I believe that. That situation taught me so much! God, I want to help the abused and bullied. Show me how/what to do! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you......Matthew 5:44 ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I am trying to pray for him, God. Okay Susan, Can you at least pray for his dogs for now? We will work on this.... Sure God: Please Bless Dallas and Pippa. Keep them well and healthy and happy for as long as is possible for doggies. Amen

Wednesday, February 10, 2021

Why I’m Thankful for Rats #mentalhealthawareness #suicideprevention (November 30, 2020)



So I was very very depressed before Glad and her pit bull, Blue moved in my house. (September 2019) I had stopped doing Airbnb but still could not find a "regular" job. Also I wasn't in contact with most of my children because our relationships were so strained. (And three of them lived right near me) Then I found out there were rats next to my dishwasher (inside of the cabinet) and they had babies! The exterminators would NOT pull out my dishwasher! I hope they regret that decision because of it I eventually fired them! They were successful at finding out where they came in though and closed off those places and we sawed off tree limbs so they couldn't enter on the roof which was one way they were but then: They were trapped in my house! And I got them with the plastic type trap from the exterminators and the old fashioned messy type which are 2$ at Walmart! (Wood and wire). I also had a safe (in case animals kill it after they eat it because I was going to get a cat!) rat poison but I'm not sure if that helped or not. Thankfully when I was suicidal I DID NOT KNOW the rats were there (as they probably were already) Blue (Glads dog) discovered them, he kept sniffing by the dishwasher and opening up the cupboard door by it! So I am also so THANKFUL that Gladys and Blue were there for moral support when I found out!


When this video from Lauren Daigle premiered I was in the pit and I felt someone heard me whisper, "I have nothing left" Rescue I suppose that's why I am an Agnostic NOT and Atheist because that was the only thing I had left: my belief in a Higher Power who it seemed "heard my SOS" I signed up for Betterhelp online counseling but later found it for free at my local health dept in Georgia.

I made it to Cally! (December 12, 2020)